Tuesday, 21 September 2010

A validation of inactivity

A validation of inactivity

I don’t feel the need to draw the same picture in a different colour pen

The concept speaks for itself without the need to have an action to speak for it

I have already ticked enough boxes

I don’t need to tick any more

Pointless generates pointlessness

To validate my pointlessness more would destroy the pointlessness

I am validation enough

Progression is needed

I can’t be arsed

Do I not look busy to you?

The only thing I am not doing is doing

I’ve done a rubik’s cube enough times to validate the activity

Inactivity breeds activity, that surely is enough validation in itself

Guinness has already granted me validation

Public interest of the pointless validates no mater how pointless

Your still looking at me aren’t you?

The best-made plans sometime go to pot, why not use these to your advantage?

I am jumping through hoops no more

Everything has a point and is therefore self validating

Because I can

I have nothing to say that hasn’t already been said

Documentation of an activity gives it point

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Every activity boils down to the same thing

I feel no need to justify concept though action again and again

I am not Gavin Turk!

I do not need to validate my presence

My presence validates itself

Documentation of this is not needed

Although this would validate it more, documentation of the documentation would then be needed to validate the documentation itself

I am enjoying the stupidity of it all

I am creating a hierarchy of pointlessness

There needs to be a bottom

Austin would talk about it being a performative utterance

There is no need for action

I could just be making all of this up

Repetition validates

Do you need me to show you I can do some thing for you to believe I can do it?

Do I need a certificate to prove it?

Even for my inactivity?

I can fabricate one if you want.

Do I not look busy to you?

I need to be drunk

The box has already been ticked

I would just be ticking it again

Same drawing different colour pen

Why do I need to?

Any excuse would validate really

Because I …

Can’t think of any

Do I not look busy to you?

Because I can’t walk in these heels

Do I not look busy to you?

Because I am to good for this

Because I can’t function without a drink

Because I can make anything up and claim that it’s true

Justification = validation

To validate is to demonstrate value or truth of

You wouldn’t care even if I were active

I already have enough validation

The pointless is was it is… pointless

I’ve already said what I have to say

I could just document it and say that I have done it

But if I do so I will be undermining everything that I’ve said

Because

Just because

Do I not look busy to you?

Because doing nothing is really fucking difficult and I need you to reward me for it

Public validation is the greatest validation of all

I am not a dancing monkey

But I need you to think I am so you give me your approval

Being granted validation for doing nothing is personal endeavour without the effort

Do I not look busy to you?

Even if I just sit here for a whole week you’ll be impressed

Because you will wait here till I do something and I like laughing at you

I am very funny

I like to make you wait

I am bored of doing what is expected of me

I need to do something for myself

This is personal validation after all

I look busy and that’s enough

I can do this all day

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Being inactive is an activity itself, pointless though it may seem

It still makes you tired

Do I not look busy to you?

Validating my activities become to easy validating an inactivity is harder

Endeavour to get the highest form of validation

Do I not look busy to you?

I do this to myself

I cant just make a painting can I?

Idiot

Drunken nights in the pub end up I self doubt

Hence you end with no performance

Hence the inaction

Hence the need to justify yourself

No matter how stupid it may seem

Validation is never enough

However hard I may try to justify it sometimes it just doesn’t work

Even so when we enter in to this world this is what we strive to achieve

Be it self-validation or the validation of others this is what we hope to achieve. I matter too

No matter how pointless it seems

Even inactivity has a point

I need to validate this to you as well as myself

I can’t do anything else

I’m bored (and I bet you are) of seeing the same thing over and over again

I’m bored

Do I not look busy to you?

I am self validating

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Whatever I do it feels like pretentious wank

Do I not look busy to you?

I do not wish to commodity myself

Because the institution tells me I have to and therefore I don’t want to

I have already ticked all the boxes

Done the impossible

Got others to realise this

Do I really need to validate the pointless even more?

Because I have made a decision and I am going to stick to it

Inactivity breeds’ activity

Do I not look busy to you?

Because I need a wee and can’t go because I am meant to be being inactive

Surely that is worth your validation

Because I have nothing better to do

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Validation of my inactivity is more valid than be being active

I have already ticked enough boxes

You can’t validate the already validated

Or the unvalidatable

Even though you can try

Like making up a word like unvalidatable and trying to justify it by using it at least twice

Only three times makes it a valid word

… unvalidatable

Do I not look busy to you?

I’ve already told you

My presence is enough

But my inactivity means I need to validate myself

God this is hard

Do I not look busy to you?

This is still the same drawing

Possibly even the same colour pen

I must try harder…

Or not try at all

Does effect bring validity?

Do I not look busy to you?

Can achieve what I set out?

Surely this endeavour is incomprehensible

And unachievable

But does it make its intention any less

Is I validate it to the extreme would it counteract the unvalidateable quality it has?

Four times definitely makes it a word

If I write a sentence incorrectly does that make the sentence un-valid

Therefore would validation of the activity be obsolete?

If I write it again correctly would it justify it?

Lets try

If I validate it to the extreme would it counteract the unvalidateable quality it has?

How about if I write it in a different way?

Would over validation override the inability to validate?

To validate is to demonstrate purpose or value of

Surly if I make it seam justifiable it will be ok

Belief and interest always outweighs truth and importance

Because no one is ever interested in art as an action so art as inaction may work?

I have justified my actions enough already; time to justify my in actions

Do I not look busy to you?

Its quiet, no one will care

It’s funny how every needs the validation of others to make themselves adequate

I look for the same thing

I am important

Even if inactive

Same drawing different pen see?

Only like red to pink though

Similar

But different

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m validating myself for gods’ sake

I must look busy

Though I will forgive you for thinking I am inactive

I am trying to justify it though

You bloody try it

I’m sure people get paid everyday for doing less

I know this is stupid

I’m just trying to find a reason for my idiocy

Though I am just enjoying the pointlessness of it all

Even though it is ticking a few boxes

Is a few enough to justify it all?

Surely a small validation is enough

Or does it need to be concrete in it reasoning to be legitimate?

Does truth triumph over repetition

Do I not look busy to you?

If you hear the same thing over and over can you believe it?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Can I ever validate my inactivity?

If I try can that justify it all

Even a simple well done makes it worth it

Do I not look busy to you?

Same drawing different colour pen

Agreement validates

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

If I make myself laugh does that count?

My presences validates

Or is it too little too late?

Does validation has an expiry date?

An end will validate?

Though does it need an end?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

U don’t need to tick anymore boxes

And neither do I

Rebel and achieve

Take personal endeavour to the next level

Don’t do anything and claim you are

I look the part, is that enough?

Help

If I keep reiterating the point will it help?

I am already validated; do I need to validate myself further?

Guinness have approved me

I have 1512 photos as evidence

What more do you need

Do you need me to show you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Why does institutional validation outweigh personal validation?

Is it important to prove everything?

Again

And again

Same drawing different pen

My presence is enough

I am here I don’t need to be active

Why explain a concept again and again

You’re not stupid

I have ticked enough boxes for you to understand

For me to understand

Why tick anymore?

Why take another picture?

Why knit another mouse?

Do I not look busy to you?

Inactivity is the only way

You need to understand this

I need to understand this

No more fucking mice

No more fucking ticking boxes

No more rubiks cube

They all have a point

I need no point

I am pointless

Why does it matter?

Or doesn’t it?

Do I not look busy to you?

If I run out of reasons for my inactivity does it then become invalidated?

Does all the hard work I have put in then fuck off?

Though inaction really doesn’t need the validation I am forcing on it

Only the institution needs that

Not the individual

Personal achieve vs. institutional archive

It seems inactivity always means invalidation

It is nothing

It does not need it

But I need it

The institution needs it

Concept to action

Nothing less, nothing more

Even if it is the same drawing with a different pen

Validation needs repetition

Tick the boxes again and again and again

Over and over like some performing monkey

Tick the boxes make the grade

Elevate and achieve

Do I not look busy to you?

More ways to validate

More excuses for my inactivity needed

Repetition works

Learn actions

Or non-actions

Same drawing different pen

Keep validating what you believe

It will eventually get the valid stamp it deserves

Can’t give in now, its already been to long

Inactivity breeds’ activity

Do I not look busy to you?

Austin

Austin

Austin

I say I am therefore I am

Do I not look busy to you?

Bed calls but validation is needed

If I can’t give it does it mean its not there?

Should I just give up now?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Tick more boxes

Keep validating

If you never achieve does it make it more pointless

Do I not look busy to you?

Do different people bring different validation?

If you are more intelligent is your point more valid

If you are more attractive does it make your opinion on aesthetic more valuable?

Does validation have variables?

Do I affect those variables as well as others?

Validation is surely just validation

Multiples make validation greater sure

But can I just claim it’s valid and people will believe?

Truth, value, importance does this even matter

But inactivity is just inactivity yes?

It can’t be any more

Quick validate more before anyone notices

No validation = invalidation

Just drawn the same drawing

Tick the same boxes

Knit the same mice

Do the same rubiks cube

They will stay, they will validate

Do I not look busy to you?

Personal endeavour to the extreme

Greater validation

Get validation for other activities too; it validates this even more

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Does my now incoherence validate me less

Even in my inactivity?

Same drawing just wiggly lines

I still make sense

I am still justified in what I say

Even if I do look less busy than before

Surely that the point

If you keep talking no one will know

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

If I fool someone does it still count?

Are they on my side?

Same drawing someone else’s pen

Public validation but not personal

Does this matter?

I’m here that is enough

Validation is radically contingent

Why try and globalise it all?

You are never going to get what you want

Do I not look busy to you?

Validate personally or validate institutionally?

Same drawing just institutionalised pen

One of them green fine liners you used to get in primary school

I don’t even like the colour green

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Stupid pen

Stupid mac

That’s meant to validate me as an artist and it does fuck all

What will it take?

No point now

Does being unprofessional piss everything up?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m out of ideas to validate myself

I give up

Am I ever goin to achieve?

Not if I spell going like goin

Validation needs education

Fuckers!

Because I am hung over and I was meant to be in 6hours ago but I used the inactivity as an excuse

Because I cant even look at the screen yet alone think about what to write on it

Because my head hurts… a lot

There is no one about so I don’t need too

I feel unproductive which inactivity is a by-product of

Do I not look busy to you?

Same drawing different colour pen

I need to tick more boxes

My inactivity does this

Validation is needed

But I can’t seam to give it to myself

There are too many other things to do

Tick tick tick tick tick

Already been ticked

To make sure I am not viewed as an art object

Concept does not need to become action

Even though the institution needs it

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I am even more useless today than I normally am

There is enough going on already

Do I not look busy to you?

If I look busy I don’t need to be busy

I can try and fool myself into believing that

I thought inactivity would be more productive

Its making my head hurt

Do I not look busy to you?

I can’t do anything else

I don’t need to do anything else

I don’t want to do anything else

Value has lessened

Do I not look busy to you?

Tapping my fingers is doing something

Sitting is doing something

Just being here is doing something

I’m passed caring anymore

Does this lack of caring de-validate?

If I say that I do care will it override it?

Even if I am making it all up

Does a statement need to be true in order to validate

Other things validate my inactivity

Therefore I don’t need to do anything to validate it

So even if I did want to I don’t need to

It’s a self-drawing drawing

I terms of public interest if I gain it and the loose it do I also loose validation?

If I loose interest do I still loose validation?

There isn’t a point to all this

Do I not look busy to you?

I am ticking the same boxes I’ve already ticked

I don’t want to do it anymore

Don’t make me

I shouldn’t need to

In fact I don’t need to

I have already validated myself enough

There is documentation to prove it

It would just be the same drawing with a different colour pen

Multiple drawings are boring

I am bored this now

I’ve ticked all the boxes already

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m too tired for this

I’ve made my decision and I’m going to stick to it

I am not going to draw the same drawn again

This is more pointless than anything else I have done

I have just broke a nail doing this nothing

Do I not look busy to you?

I had nothing else to do

I don’t want to do anything else

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Even inactivity has a purpose

It is harder than you think

Because trying to come up with something better is like pulling teeth

I needed to do something

I can’t work under pressure

I refuse to work under pressure

I will not make a piece of work just to tick boxes

Even though I will make work about ticking boxes

Do I not look busy to you?

I do not need to do anything more than this

Something enough is enough

I have already done enough

I don’t want to do anymore

I will not bow to institutional pressures

Inactivity breeds’ activity

If performance is an awareness of an action does an awareness of inaction still count?

I will not subvert live arts intentions anymore

I am beginning to contradict myself

I do not want to contradict myself further

I do not need to play this game anymore

I am beginning to repeat my self

I am already aware of my intent

I have already informed everybody of this intent

I am not a one trick pony, why act like one

I have faith in it

To see how far I can push it

To use minimal effort

To aid progression

To not stand still

Do I not look busy to you?

Because concept always triumphs

To understand what the hell I’m doing

To work out what the hell I’m doing

To take the piss

To cause a bit of trouble

To be myself

To get away with doing nothing

To get away with doing what I always do

To give the pointless point

So I don’t have to tick more boxes

So I am happy with what I have done

To draw a different picture

Because I don’t need to please everyone

Because I don’t paint pretty pictures

They make me feel sick

I don’t feel the need to be entertaining

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

The world is not a stage

Why try and make it so

I don’t need to do anything

Otherwise I’ll go insane

It takes a lot of effort to not go to the loo for this long

Because it’s too cold to do anything else

Because if I do anything else I’ll make a mess

Because I’ve got better things to be doing

Because I am an artist not a performer

Because I do not make theatre

I don’t want to do anything else

I can’t do anything else

I’m sick of being active

I fancied a change

I needed to take a risk

I needed to commit to something

Do I not look busy to you?

Anything else would have been pointless

I am not looking for a over reaction

I am doing this for me

Anyway I look hot as a secretart

A little bit of wit goes along way

To achieve

The only thing I’m doing is not doing

Not everybody’s going to understand what I’m doing

Because without this I would give up

I can’t decide what means more to me

Do I not look busy to you?

You can never be sure of anything

There is to much drama in this world

Because I don’t want to be ushering people around so now I have an excuse

I’m busy doing nothing working the whole day through trying to find lots of things not to do

I’d like to be unhappy but I simple don’t have the time

I’m trying to ruffle a few feathers

I’m not doing what you expect of me

I am not doing what you tell me

Do I not look busy to you?

I do not give up that easily

Anything else would tire me out

I don’t need to pretend

I’m just flirting with the idea

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

There are only so many times you can say something

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m trying to push myself

Failure is not an option

Do I not look busy to you?

The need to document my endeavour

However pointless

Elevate and achieve

Sometimes you can try too hard

Too many cooks spoil the broth

Too many ingredients also do that

I ran out of good ideas

I’m taking a risk

Do I not look busy to you?

Less is sometimes more

I look like I’m ready to start

The potential is too great

It is awkward

Because as long as I tell you it’s fine it will be fine

I can get a lot out of this

I document therefore I am

Do I not look busy to you?

Because I can justify my non-action in blocks

Only two more hours until in have way

Only two more hours until it’s over

I’m not doing anything therefore you can’t criticise it

I am self documenting

Do I not look busy to you?

Inactivity keeps me busy

I can happen over several hours

I don’t really have to

It is what it is

Pointless

I am wasting time

There is no need to state the obvious

I am subtle

No I not look busy to you?

I am a parasite

There is no need to

I am not a drama queen

I can do anything except do

I need to do something even if that something is nothing

Because sometimes the obvious just goes straight over peoples heads

Small things amuse small minds

If actions speak louder than words where does inaction lye?

I am not a walking cliché

I can do what I want

It’s a long to be doing anything more productive

I am pushing myself

A change will do you good

Enough is enough

The simpler the better

I have better things to do

What’s the point?

Does it need a point to gain validity?

Surely the point is that it’s got no point therefore its is already valid

Inaction is an action in itself

I’m sick of doing what’s expected of me

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Just because I look like a secretary doesn’t mean I have to be one

Do I not look busy to you?

I can get away with murder

My body has it’s own presence

You can never get everyone to understand

Even though validation should achieve this

There are never enough people to finish ticking the boxes

Ideas get in the way of everything

I have already achieved what I set out to achieve

I’m trying to be funny

Not everything is what it seams

You can never completely validate your actions

Can you ever validate your inactions?

Fabrication can achieve

You can’t polish a shit

I can perform without performing

It’s enough not to

Same drawing different coloured pen – drawing over the same lines

Ticking the same boxes

I don’t want to play this game anymore

Do I not look busy to you?

I can just claim that I am

Though I am not enough without that claim

Austin knows that

I am making an utterance

In saying it I am doing it

I need to look like I am being inactive

As long as I validate it I can do it

The institution is a great supporter of that claim

I can get away with it

Because being drunk never helps you get the best out of the

Situation

Because what might seam like a good idea might just be masquerading as a bad one

Action needs to be taken

Because I am not stuck in the past

I want you to think differently

I wish to make clear my intentions

This way I am not accountable for what happens

If you continue to something people will eventually get the idea

Do I not look busy to you?

I have to be consistent

I could do anything and you would buy it

I am stretched to far

Everything isn’t always what it seams

In doing this I am justified

It feels right

I can and will do what I want

I give in

Even though it might not seem that was I have a purpose

Concept = purpose

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Office lady is ruining her performance by doing too much

Less = more

I’ve done too much already

This is important

I over thought things

There is too much pressure to do anything but

Unless I wanted to do the same drawing which is pointless

There is too much on my plate

So I don’t have to be depended on as usual

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Some people are idiots

I am not capable of anything else

Do I not look busy to you?

I like to think I’m funny

There is only so far you can push something

I wont do what you tell me

I can become invisible

Do I not look busy to you?

Inactivity breed’s inactivity

To get some interest in my endeavour

No matter its use

I am not a machine

It is rewarding

Really!?!

There is method to my madness

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

To demonstrate a purpose

Do I not look busy to you?

To not give too much away

To not hide behind objectivity any more

I echo reality

There is only so much I can’t do

To enjoy the stupidity of it all

Give the pointless point

Some information just can’t be passed on

Lies get you anywhere

Permanence

Remains

The ephemeral

To open new doors

Things keep swimming round in my head

Inspiration can come from anywhere

Even alcohol

Not only what I do is stupid

I am not entertainment

I do not need to appeal to the masses to validate my action/ lack of action

I fit in around everyone else

Do I not look busy to you?

Because I actually care about what I do

I can do this over and over and over

Do I not look busy to you?

I cant to the same thing forever

Not everything needs to be obvious

The world isn’t made for tall people

Do I not look busy to you?

I think repetition is funny

I like to cause a bit of trouble

Sometimes it helps to get everything out

Sometimes I don’t have a clue what’s going on

Inactivity aids in sussing this out

Inactivity is the way forward

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I can get away with unprofessionalism

This doesn’t affect validation

Not in terms of inactivity anyway

Do I not look busy to you?

I am aware of what is going on around me

This is getting me nowhere

There are always periods of nothingness

Because I say so

Objects are heavy

I am a one-man band

I lead a one-person army

I’m just biding my time

But using it all up in the process

I am giving wait to my actions

Or inactions

To validate is to demonstrate use or purpose

There is always uncertainty

I trust my feelings

Sarcasm is my friend

Sometimes concepts are never justified through actions

I am not shameless in my self-promotion

Tick

Tick

Tick

Tick

Tick

I don’t care

I’ve ticked all the boxes I need to

I enjoy it

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m pushing through

I will finish soon

I’m trying not to repeat myself

Do I not look busy to you?

I make myself laugh – is that good enough?

I’m giving you attitude

Thank is all I need

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Inactivity breed’s activity

Activity validates my inactivity

Haven’t I ticked enough boxes already?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy too you?

I am allowed to

There is too much already going on

I give you an excuse so believe it

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

There is enough work to validate already

Sometimes it takes me a while to realise it

Sometimes you just need to stop

This is how I am

I have will power

I need to be clearer

I’m shaking this up

Do I not look busy to you?

Inactions speak louder than words

Do I not look busy to you?

Because I am dependable

This is it

I don’t take myself seriously

None of this counts

I don’t want to play anymore

I don’t need to be clever, just witty

I just need everyone to believe I’m doing what I’m not doing

I seem to be the only one who cares

I illustrate a simple point

Progression

To give me some idea

Nothing more nothing less

To keep pointlessness free flowing

To create a rhythm

I am not an idiot

I can get away with this kind of shit as long as I validate it

I can go unnoticed

There is nothing else to do

To clarify

To pull things together

I am an honorary fine art student

I wont do what is expected of me

I am still ticking boxes

I don’t have a choice

I will do these things to myself

This is the last thing I will do here

I want to give up

Its dead and I’m still at it

I’m squeezing as much juice out of it as I can

There is a lot of wasted space

I am the only thing that is doing but not doing

I am putty in his hands

I trust too much

I need affirmation

I am never completely happy with what I do

I need to push myself further

I am never going to get what I want out of activity

I bring it on myself

To waste time

To use time

I give up

It is all stupid

I enjoy the stupidity

I don’t need to be here yet I still am

Do I not look busy to you?

I don’t need to be here

I wasn’t here and it still had presence

It all seemed to be pointless

I had to be truly inactive to understand validation of inaction

The comedy of it all

The need to experiment

To push it over the edge

To take the piss

To get away with murder

Show the importance of the pointless

Give the pointless point

Tick boxes without actually ticking them

To get something out of it for myself

So I can sit on my arse all day

Minimal effort maxim gain

Nothing really matters

No one really gives a shit

Not being here reiterates my point

Questioning the status of live art- an action needing to happen

I am the queen of inactivity

Extension of time – doing nothing makes the time go slower – I don’t want to leave yet I’m not ready

As hard as I try I’m not useful

Durational work means you can spend as much of as little time with the piece

I am not imposing

I fill a void

Ideas of importance weigh heavy on my mind

The need for public interest

I’m excited to see how it will pan out

I haven’t got a clue where this is going

Because things can be fabricated

I don’t want to go back to reality

Banana cake is there to be eaten

You can’t have your cake and eat it to – as much as you want to

Writing is the way forward

I don’t need to give a reason for my validation

Only fact will validate more

My head is full

People may miss what I’m doing but I have a presence elsewhere

I can do this all day and still be bored

That’s not the way it works

Curiosity may have killed the cat but it led a far more interesting life

I cooperate but am unwilling to be walked over

I have had my fill of certain things this year

I am getting sucked into my own head and that is not a fun place to be

I need to bring some humour back

I doubted my previous intentions

I wind myself up

I am on a roll

I love to watch the world go by

I don’t need a reason why – I am only validating my inactivity not the reasons themselves

There is only so much shit I can take

Do I not look busy to you?

There is nothing more I can do

Do I not look busy to you?

It is so quiet

Agogo

I don’t know everything

And I don’t pretend to

I lack in self-confidence

I cover it up with bravado

I am making the most out of this last week

Cheese

People expect a lot from me – I am giving them nothing

I was drunk

Nick

Having too much fun

Communication

I believe in my inaction

Do I not look busy to you?

I am clever than that

I have a tendency to over think things

The things that I think less about people often think I have thought about more

To think of the future

Highlighting the obvious is funny

I like to but an x in a box every now and again just to mix it up a little

Do I not look busy to you?

I validate to exist

Do I not look busy to you?

I might as well be on Facebook

Because there is a hierarchy of art and something needs to be the bottom

I am getting nothing out of this

I am not a control freak

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Its progressive

I have had worse ideas

I can’t be arsed anymore

This is the final hurdle

I am telling my story

Its part of the process

Because pink is my favour colour

It’s all just words

It’s all just validation

Do I not look busy to you?

Because sometimes things fuck up for no reason

I suffer for my art

I can never win

I never do things the easy way

I’m not after a cheep thrill – I am not at a theme park

Do I not look busy to you?

I am active in my inactivity

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m working lunch

Shit happens

Things never come to an end

There is no need for resolve

I might as well

This is stupid

I look like I should

I can’t just sit back and watch

Even with all the reassurance in the world I still know the last idea was crap

I evade judgement with my indecision

I am nothing more

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Inactivity breeds activity but makes you really fucking sleepy

I need to do more

I need to do nothing

It is useless

I don’t know why I do it to myself

I am a glutton for punishment

Progression

Progression

Progression

You always find yourself trying to attach meaning to things that have non

Some people are slow

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

This is a validation of nothing

It has less point than before

Do I not look busy to you?

Reiteration brings understanding

Understanding brings validation

To try something new

Do I not look busy to you?

Its funny watching people who are meant to be active being less active than me

I take the piss, that’s what I do

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

It’s all just documentation

It doesn’t matter

Some people are about as useful as a chocolate teapot

Does attention bring validation?

If I pay attention to something for a long time does it make it valid?

Does it even matter?

There are things that you just don’t need to witness

Do I not look busy to you?

Same pen different colour

Same pen same colour

I don’t need to but I feel the need to

I give anything a shot

I granted it validation when I set about doing it

Do I not look busy to you?

I love it when a plan comes together

I have three pieces

Do I not look busy to you?

Default

Wanker

I have ticked too many boxes

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I don’t want to so I’m not

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Same drawing different colour pen

Guinness have already granted me validation

I have already done the rubiks cube 1512 times

That is enough

Repetition aids validation

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I already have enough public interest

I can’t take the pressure

Enough has been done

I don’t need to prove this to you

I have already said what needs to be said

I don’t need to write it again

I don’t need to be here

I don’t need to do anything

Drunken nights lead to nothing getting done

I am never going to get the validation I want

There is no point to this

You never know what’s going to happen

I keep endeavouring and people keep fucking it up

I can depend on myself

Do I not look busy to you?

There is enough validation to last a lifetime

I can fabricate this

I have fabricated this

It is never ending

I do not have a on and off switch

Do I not look busy to you?

I can’t keep repeating myself

I don’t need to spell it out

I’m not serious

I am unaware of where I stop and where performance begins

Do I not look busy to you?

I don’t need to be here

Because I’m drunk again

No one is about

There are 6844 words of utter shit

Do I not look busy to you?

A validation of inactivity is never going to happen

I set up these impossible talks

I type therefore I am

Mmmmmm

Shit happens

Do I not look busy to you?

Same drawing different colour pen

Do I not look busy to you?

I give in

I am a smug git

Do I not look busy to you?

I don’t even now what I’m doing anymore

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I am making a mess

I am drunk

Things are too funny

Do I not look busy to you?

I’m falling apart

I have turned up for work again

I am easily distracted

I’m trying to be proactive

I’m a giggly girl

Typing has become near impossible

I have said it all

Welcome to London

I’m just taking the piss now

Cause I am pissed!

I broke my skirt

Do u want to be me for a while?

Grrrrrrrrr

Grrrrrrrr

The performer has changed

But has it?

Is it still valid if a member of the audience gets involved?

I have no idea how to do this

I don’t even know what I have to write

I am busy.

Do I not look BUSY to you?

I am Lauren

It’s not fun to be Lauren

I much prefer being Jeanne

At least I’m not autistic

I am writing because the letters appear on the screen

I was told to do this

I am therefore doing this

I have no idea what this is

I am sat in the chair because I was told to

I am typing because I have been watching Lauren typing and therefore I am reproducing what I have seen

I want to use a word but I have no idea how to spell it

Re-enactment

Ah!

So I am re-enacting this performance within the performance

I am not liking this though

A performance is starting for a change and we have audience

3

Do I need to be here?

Do I not look busy to you?

This is very very boring

A head is actually more empty than I thought

By re-enacting this I am validating it

It is now validated

My job is done

I don’t need to be here

I wanted to try something else

It is nothing without me

I have work to do

I am better than this

I do not need to be professional

Do I not look busy to you?

Nothing more

Do I not look busy to you?

I keep getting brought things

No one knows any better

I’m a vein cow and it’s all about me

We need a crit

I like being played with

I get away with this shit

I don’t need to put on a performance

It doesn’t take a lot

I’m confused

I’m just doing what I’m doing

Do I not look busy t you?

I love giving it some attitude

It’s too late in the day

It’s so much more fun when I’ve got a drink inside of me

It is a lot funnier too

I DON’T NEED A REASON TO EXCUSE MYSELF

Caps lock is my friend

I feel like Britney

I pretend like I know what I’m doing

You don’t care if I do

Nothing I do makes much sense

I can only give so much

That’s the way I roll

Do I not look busy to you?

There is to many people

Comedy typing is funny

I perform but don’t perform

There is such thing as a bad egg

This is a scratch performance

I can work it

Beer then wine makes you feel fine, wine then beer makes you feel queer

I am funny

I make myself laugh at least

Do I not look busy to you?

I am already valid

I don’t want to play anymore

I have gotten too big for my boots

Everyone is expecting a show

I no get instant gratification

Its about be giving up on my endeavour

It’s about me not getting sucked in to the spectacle of it all

I will live

I never know what I am going to do until the last minute

I still don’t know what I’m doing now at the end of the week

There is more than what is in my head

I can’t see the end

There is no end

I am making something out of nothing

I wanted to do better than what I had

It is pointless

That’s what I do

In order to validate my actions I need to be inactive

This is what it has come to

Do I not look busy to you?

I can sustain inactivity

My goal is to give value to something that has little

Do I not look busy to you?

Public interest is paramount

Nothing ever happens

Not everything needs to happen on a stage

I have a sense of humour

I am will to take a risk

I want to play

I’m trying to draw out my last few days

I don’t want to get up off my fat arse

It works in this context

It wont work anywhere else

I don’t have to try too hard

I can go unnoticed

There is so much I should be doing which I’m not

This is about as productive as banging my head against I brink wall

I am as useful as a chocolate teapot

My validation doesn’t have to be true just believable

For the good of man kind

This is the best piece you will ever see

Belief and interest will always triumph over truth and importance

If I do something for long enough it will become valid

Contradicting arguments make things less valid

Repetition validates

I need to reiterate my point

Do I not look busy to you?

Tick more boxes

Re-tick the same boxes to validate my point

Do I not look busy to you?

My heart isn’t in it

Do I not look busy to you?

I am capable of much more

Do I not look busy to you?

Just because

I exist that is enough

I want the best out of things

Because if I’m not careful my life will turn into a musical

The more shit I spout the funnier it is

I get away with it

Do I not look busy to you?

I can say I’m doing anything right now and you will buy it

Doing nothing is dull as hell but the public are still interested

Do I not look busy to you?

I can’t take myself seriously

Do I not look busy to you?

Its funny watching people try and suss me out

I deserve a break

I am me

I procrastinate well

This is it

My work is never done

At the end of the day it will never work but to achieve the impossible is the endeavour

I can do anything

It is a process

I am boring myself as well as others

I am a numpty

I am living in the moment

Whatever I write will sound pretentious

It is useful

I am unwilling to give in to the pressure of the institution

But I will work along side it

I might never achieve what I set out to do

This is not a problem

The things I see offend me

I am not just another cog in the wheel

Whatever I do will have an impact on me

I create change

There is enough shit in this world

This is all bullshit

I have the bollocks to

I am not a commodity

As much as I resist everything becomes documentation

Do I not look busy to you?

I get it

I am simple in the way I execute things

I have too many thoughts

I am not trying to be what I can’t

I am not painting a pretty picture

Or drawing the same thing with a different colour pen

Whatever happens, happens

Delete repeated words

I am here but I’m not

I will never change my ways

If you make it they will come

Nothing is certain of this I am certain

I justify myself with mass

A lot of nothing is still nothing

I do not provide entertainment

I don’t do things by half

Do I not look busy to you?

Do I not look busy to you?

I don’t need to be here

I want to see how much or how little I can get away with

I go on and on and on and on

I am self-validating already

Because I can

Because I will

Because I am

I always planned it this way

I hate documentation of live art

I decide what happens

I trust myself

Context informs everything

Pre-documentation

Nothing ever turns out the way you plan

A seed got planted in my head

This look says it all

I want to win this fight

There is a presence

No one wants to see a performance

I can pretend to do this all day

I don’t know why I’m here in the first place

It easy

I am

There is so much more to do

Nothing has been done

You would think that I deserve a good grade

It is simple

There is no need to over-complicate things

This is what I do

Every concept doesn’t need an action

I just can’t get enough

I turn shit into gold

There is more to be done

I need a lucky break

Its funny

To confuse

I have done enough already

I need to keep telling you this

I am giving life to a dead space

Presence is everything

Sometimes things are not set in the right context

Do I not look busy to you?

It one big experiment

I am not ready to conclude

I do not need to be here

I’m done